BG : CH1 :AVG

I salute to all my gurus who guided ,helped directly and indirectly though books ,videos and many satsungs and also to my parents for making me what iam today , I need all your blessing and guidance to write my understanding on Geeta .


CH1: Arjuna Vishada Gadha

what that does mean ? Vishada means sorrow or weakness or incompetence of us to do any task or fight against the disturbances or weaknesses  we face ,or fight against the wrong thoughts and wrong habits that we have

solution is mentioned clearly in ch2 by Lord Krishna or our own consence which guides and lets you know what to do and what not do .

so many questions arises in the first ch

1) why should arjuna fight against his own Master,GrandFather and Cousins ?
2) Is there a inner meaning fighting against our own negative tendencies ?
3)  Do shouldn't feel any emotions while doing Work /Fight or Dharma ?
4)  Duties vs Rights
5) whats my duty in such conditions   help me Krishna


Solutions
: Moha ( I and Me,Mine)  also called Ignorance overpowered Arjuna to carry out his duty.
The whole purpose of Gita is to thunderstrike on mans ignorance and delusion ,which is identifying the Self with the body ,that's the cause of the Arjuna poverty of spirt at a time when his duty demanded resolute action .

Arishadvarga — the six passions of mind or enemies of desire are kama (lust), krodha (anger), lobha (greed), moha (delusion), mada (pride) and matsarya (jealousy),
the negative characteristics which prevent man from realizing the atman (Reality that is his True Being).
kama — lust, craze, desire
krodha — anger, hatred
lobha — greed, miserliness, narrow minded
moha — delusory emotional attachment
mada or ahankara — pride, stubborn mindedness
matsarya — envy, jealousy, show or vanity, and pride

July11-Managing things

July 11,

This day is a learning day for me in the aspects of Management, handling multiple things,
friends and family. ALL problems will come at once , i used toheard it, but it happend to me today.

1) I have sent an complaint email unknowingly , it happend with out heart, i said to MV(person) that R is on leave and unable to get hold of him to make the task happen, THis statement made my M(manager) angry , and said you are spoling our relationships with the both ,never complain or show attitude on others.
May be with out my consious mind, i have sent the email. but bad has happened.
I was asked to move out of project .......:) good punishment.

2) In the Evening , M and S are the two different teams, M had setup a meeting at 3 and S at 2.
Actually we all are working on one proj, but why two calls setups ?. Unfortunately we have atteneded the 2 pm meeting with S only, after the meeting completed we had shooted minutes meeting email to all(M,S)
after 3 pm.M was waiting on for us, then we have joined the call, he got angry, and why didnt you asked me to join the 2 o clock call. I have failed to anticipate all such small mis communication things .
This kind of incidents will spoil the relationships ..right.

3) Colleague :Never ever poke into others personal stuff , how close he may be with you ,
4) Family: sorted out , explained the languange conversation with between my fiancy and parents.
explained M , its just a communication problem.

5) Rahul, asked me to transfer 2k, but i couldnt do it. did only 1 k.
6) Shridar was waiting for me since 5 pm for swiming , i didn't go to room early, he was disspointed .
we had plans tohve biryani and champine, but Paradise restuarant was closed  and we atlast bought costly food from crwon of india , sweet biryani


My day ended with Champanie drink with Mutton biryani ., slept peacefully.

28_birthday_celebration

June 11 , My birthday.
This time i have celebrated birthday in US ,with roommates and office colleagues.

Wishes received from
1) Rahul
2) Ashok
3) Rama krishna( Called from India)
4)Anusha
5) Vishnu it
6) Santhosh -it
7) Santhosh , Kondal
8) Shashi, ( Missed call from India)
9) chinnu
10) Nagaraju
11) sravan kumar b
12) abhijit
13) abigna
14) Naveen loka
15) Sowmya rao ( pavan sis)


On june 10 ,  Deepak, naveen k,ajay and myself went to Hooters bar ,
had beer and chicken wings.

-- On june11 , Invited kondal,santhosh,vinu and family, aswin ,aditya , deepak, ajay, and raghu
and my roommates sridhar and rama babu to lunch,

but sridar,san, raghu,ajay ,deepak  came for lunch ,,,

Thats the enjoyment.

2011

2011

May_23_To_Jun_6

Thank god for a great challenge i had in this duration ,I came to know

1) about myself , where do i stand in critical situations
and circumstances which are new to me .
2) about a leader , how a leader behaves and his responsibilities
3) Spantaneous knowledge , thinking at that momemt.
4) Temper control. emotional feelings
5) how to take risks and challenges and alternatives plans
6) dedication , no giving up
7) every small task is real important in making a big task.
8) date of delivery(Timings) and its importance.

Let me elobarate the points.
1) In this critical situation i came to know about myself alot, where do i stand in real world,what else i need to do to be with the competitive world.
  a) Communication :
  b) Fear of failure,
  c) Listening and focusing on the current topic or discussion.
  d)importance of documentation ,flowcharts , ChangeRequest documents ,
  e) taking responsibility
  f) waking up early and early to office.
  g) importance of each email and each call
  h) noting down each point discussed in the conf call or oral discussion.
  i) TO have complete picture of whats happening ,and end goal.

2)  Leader:
 Farid is the man, leart something from him,
   a) have to be very cool everytime,even in critical situations then only our originality comes out .
   b) noting down each small tasks and verifing
   c) understanding the application by asking questions
   d) having alternative plans always
   e) never raise our voice ,ask questions in other ways to get the answer we want.

3) Never lose temper, hope , be cool and positive always .
4) each word we talk and type in email is very important.

5) if any alerts or unable to complete the work in time , we have to let to know others about the timings.
dependencies, others will plan and allocate properly.

MyExperiance at Barcap on May23_2011

Woke up at 4 am , i was ready by 4.45 and waiting for a booked cab  ,exactly at 5.00 am ,  cab  was waiting for me outside the 411 deercreek dr, reached princeten junction by 5.11 , fare for the cab was 20$.
i had taken 5.19 train and reached NYK penn station by 6.15 . started waking to Barcap office which is at 6 avenue 54 street 1301,my barcap swipe card is not working , i had to wait until receptionist come , he gave me temporary card and took the lift and sat down on my seat.

Even before my system started , i got call from Shabbir saying why are the Ledger trades being reported ?. i have no idea ,i said to him, he was in tense tone. ,i said i will look into it, then vinu called me immediately and said the same , after 5 mins, then shalandra called me for the same ,why are the ledger trades being reported.
..system is loading ..i didnt even checked any emails in desktop,i was looking all the emails in my iphone .
then Mahesh came, he asked me why the customeraccoutn 430832315 xxx is being reported ,it should be suppressed ,. asked me to search for that acocunt in the logs files. i wasnt able to find it. even searched ,he failed.
he asked me to send the queries for that account .
then mike queye came ,,he is asking why the tradeid reported ?. who the hell knows man. thinking in my mind.
i donno anything , they are talking ledger, account business , how come i know all the business .
then again shabbir called me , what is the issue, i was unable to identiy the issue , even im not understanding what they are talking...then shabbir ,,and then shal ..calls are keep coming to my cell.
mike is asking for queries..mahesh is asking queries ....
shal is asking why, shabbir why ..what to do then ..i just asked do i need toshut down the rtrs gateway ?.

then all of sudden mahesh pulled me into conference call. already big bossed are in the call. shal, cosma,mike congelso.mike queye,mahesh,shabbir,jacapo.vinay...
they are asking the same question.why the ledger trades reported ,,,

shalandra asked many questions ,i dint understood.he framed the same question in many ways to get answer from me,,,,
but im not understanding ....same answer i was giving ..tradetype is E ,instead of L..
they are saying that is wrong.tradetype will be E ,,but the account will be in the account table to supress.

THey asked me to look into the logs.i dont know ,that trade came was on saturday , i was looking at monday log.
i said the logic for regular trades and missed messages are different .by this they were shocked and mike c.
came tomy desk and introdueced himself to me, he asked is the logic different for missed trades and regular trades i said ,yes the processing is quite different , but filters logic is same .. for regular trades ignore value should be under tradersbook and for the missed msgs it shd be under the column portfolio...then mike c,,talked to remaining members in the phone and raised alarm that problem is with wizcom code.
conf call is completed and they sent an email to all.
then  i said,this logic is there since 5 years .and its working fine .now why didnt failed?.
he asked me is there any proof of document ?. i said i will talk to naga and let u know.

now ..i explained the logics to all. that for missed messages , ignore account shd be in the portfolio column.
mike q and mahesh agreed . but i donno whats happening ..
then mike c called naga , and said that what i was talking is not able to understand by him.
naga called me and then he said that all the story....

kashi tried to help me , but he said its all internal politics and games .
by that time all finished.

i didnt had flowcharts handy ,,sql tools handy,even queries are not handy.

-------------------still im not understanding what is happening ?.
becouse last friday i have deployed a new version.i was thinking about it only.
after analysis i went to shal ,he explained clearly. --now my mind started glowing .

naga called me and said ,you shd be brave and strong and communicate commandingly

then mike q and mahesh are keep asking me what is this,how is this, keep on sending me email by emails.
i was looking even at niids ob. pims, and rtrs .

its already 10 am.
 when i was about to get a cup of water or coffee, mahesh came and asking for some questions.
time jumped to 11 am.
another call came from vinu ,saying that pims is not working ...
again from naga,
then joined the conferecene call and it started at 12.45 and ended at 3.30 ,,for about 4 hours .
and again another call .till 4.40 i was on call with Farid,kristen.naga.and with all the ipa banks.
after 5.naga asked me to prepare excel sheet and sent it out to all .

in the call, i was testing pims qa and production
they are asking many questions..i was able to answer all to them.
by 6.30 packed my stuff and jumped out from office .
i didnt eat anything whole day.just had one hot choclate coffee thats it ,i didnt even got time to have something.

catched 7.03 train and reached princeten junction by 8.15, by that time santhosh is also waiting for bus.both took the same 600 bus and reached deercreek by 9.15...started cooking and eat by 10, then naga called me and talked about the pimlink .
he said lets go to office early morning 7.30.
i agreed.

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so many things to learn from this great day
1) i was on time in office
2) i didnt panic or feared much. when compared to 6 months back.or some other situation
3) almost like villans askiing me tooo  many questions.i was not in tense ..but i was only bit tense.
4) i was listening with full of concentration on all the call
5) ddint get chance to have a cup of coffeee. but i made it even i was busy
6)not to agree when too many people force you .
7) dont say something for that time.think and say.
8) if im unable to handle the situation ,bring your lead into it.
9) dont take the blame when all are on heat.throw it .
10) dont agree for someone is angry or shouting at you .
11) dont talk in low voice if its bad or good or correct or wrong
12) dont take into heart too much.
13) ask questions ,,if you ddidnt understand the issue.
14) dont miss use the opportunity.
15) be lose confident ,or give up..
----------i dint give up..---------------------------
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